You have the Power

I cant explain my feelings, just that it hurts and feels good at the same time. Its hard to let go of what happened in the past. And it's hard to bring in the new. My heart feels deep, twisted, ready to let go and flourish. I want to let it out but I'm scared. It's hard when I look at you and you look away. I don't know what your thinking, I don't know if you feel like I do. I don't even know how I feel exactly. I don't know whats going on when I'm gone. Its hard to be far away in a place that brings me no love. I need to find something new that works, a new state of mind, a new me in a sense. I just want to let go. Be free if you will. Just be me, but I'm scared. Scared of what can happen and what just might happen if I do. I don't want to get hurt and start over again. I don't know if its worth the pain.